Goodbyes are the hardest

So today, well more like this morning I had to say goodbye to Luis (my boyfriend) as I will not be seeing him for a whole month, it sounds stupid, due to a few of my friends have boyfriends in the army and they go away for months and months, serving in Afghanistan, but here I am, mopping around and feeling extremely sorry for myself as we are both going on holiday separately with our friends, and the crossover means we won't get to see each other. It was so hard, and so strange been together with him for over a year and a half and the most we have been away from each other is a few days. Having barely any contact and not seeing him make me feel just so slightly nor chess to be honest. I find it hard to speak about it with people, only a handful of my friends have actually bothered to see if I'm OK this week. Some people are really beginning to wind me up, maybe its PMS.
Tonight I'm going out with the girls, we will see how that goes. I normally have great nights with them but this week i have felt extremely lonely and not particularly in the loop of whats going on, my own fault really my heads been all over the place and to be honest trying to spend as much time with Luis as possible. Tonight i will be shoving as many vodka and oj's down my neck as possible and the odd or rows of tequila shots to numb this sick feeling i have in the bottom of my stomach as he flys on a plane to Ibiza for two weeks.
On the upside and more positive note i have 14 days till Ibiza, i have brought all my swimwear as I'm a 34F i find it extremely hard to find decent, and on a student budget swimwear, but asda have done some great number for £2.50 a piece, so a fiver a set BARGG!!! got all my shorts, dresses, playsuits ect ready, just need to grab most of the tops. New look have done a GREAT sale in my eyes. EVERYTHING that literally came in like 2 weeks ago is bang in the sale for like under a tenner, So girls its a great place to go and find a decent bargin. I'm abit sneaky were I live thier a main shopping complex called westwood cross were the majority of people shop, so all the great bargins go in the first few days. However theres a high street in margate which is very run down now, and not worth a look so no one goes there, but however they still have a new look there, and because no-one goes there all the great things that get shopped up quickly are still all remaining in that store at sale prices, and neat and tidy. So if you don't like a good rummage, and would rather sale was just like a shop its the best place to head. I'm going to try and blog regularly, i haven't advertised or linked anything due to i sort of want this as my little haven for thoughts more than a blog that i write just to get followers.

Love xxxx